Forgiveness is not mine

I deleted this post not long after writing it because it seemed petty. It was, and still is however the sentiment remains. The more things change the more they stay the same. I had a fight with my best friend. She broke my heart. We’ve tried, unspokenly, to mend our friendship but the cracks are still visible. I find I can’t forgive her so I keep her at arm’s length. I want to let her back, to embrace her and forget the things she said, but I can’t. It seems stupid because usually I forgive so readily, I’m always quick to see the positive; I want to believe everything is perfect. But this time I can’t. My husband upsets me every other day of the week and I forgive him instantly. So why can’t I forgive my closest female friend? Because I expect my husband to hurt me – he’s a man, men are stupid, thoughtless, ignorant creatures and they can’t help themselves. I expected more from her, I expected more compassion, more understanding, more INTELLIGENCE. She acted like a man. I can’t forgive that. Read more!